HELLLLLLLOOOOOOOO EVERYBODYYY!!! I am soooo happiiiii right now. I literally just can't even cope with the fact that I'm IN AUSTRALIA sharing the good word of God with His children!!! How cool!!!!!

I have had so many days here, five months yesterday in fact... and I know that's not very long compared to other well-seasoned missionaries BUT my experiences have been life-changing. And I don't say that with a grain of salt. I mean, literally life-changing. I feel as though I've had a glimpse of the love Heavenly Father has for each and every single person and it's overwhelming to think about. Truly.

As girls, we cry a lot...like a lot. And I, particularly, cry a ton. Especially as a missionary because it's really, really hard. Quite honestly the hardest thing I've ever done. On the contrary, it's the most rewarding. And I'm so flippin happy all the time. Especially these last seven days. To say I've experienced miracles seems like a bit of an understatement because I just broke down in tears last night, following an appointment with a friend of ours. The reason I cried is not because they were put on date, not because it went terribly. But just simply because it went good. That's it. The spirit was there in abundance which was just what I needed.

I've learned over the years that I'm the type of person that needs reassurance. I learn the hard way and I'm stubborn. Therefore, when I don't have someone telling me, "you're doing okay" like every five seconds than I think that I'm the oppo of okay and that no one cares blah blah. But of course, someone does care and always has. Give you a clue, I've already said His name twice... YES indeed... God, our Father in Heaven! So as I've reflected on this week I recognized that I felt the man Himself poking me, nudging me and at times throwing stuff at my face saying, "YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH." But I was too caught up to hear Him. To say, you know what I am a good missionary. 

So why do we not think we're good enough? Why can't we just believe what others tell us? Is it because we want attention? We want to be heard, seen, recognized as a person? Well of course we do. Everyone needs that reassurance. Otherwise, how would we know we're doing okay? So then I go.. "I'm not the only one who needs reassurance" and THEN I put two and two together and said "THAT'S WHY IM HERE" it was like an Aha of Aha moments for me. How did I not already know that I'm here to help people? Here to let them know God loves them and cares for them? I did, but when I focus in on myself and my circumstances, I tend to lose the true focus....the children of God. 

I know this isn't anything you haven't heard before. But for me, it was a blessing. I cried so much because I felt the love my Heavenly Father has for me and I was able to have the reassurance that I do need, that I doing good helping give others the reassurance that they're not alone. God's listening, their cries, and sorrows are not to be lived alone. And to me, that is a miracle. Looking outside the natural man is SO hard let me tell yah. But I was able to do it this week and I'm so proud of myself. Which is weird because I don't get proud of myself. Which is lame because we totally should be happy for our accomplishments. So this is me, PROUD OF MYSELF. 

I know God lives. I know this gospel that I'm here teaching is real and can bless + help any person who wants it, regardless of circumstance, past choices/regrets, etc. I love each of you with every fiber of my being. If you EVER need anything, a compliment, some love, cheering up, ASK ME. I'd be more than happy to send something because ALL of us deserve to have Aha moments where we can say, "Dang I AM worth it, I AM okay, and I AM loved."

Have a blessed week like I know you will. I love you HEAPS AND HEAPS. And READ THE BOOK OF MORMON. THAT BOOK HAS POOOWWWAAA.

Sister Lockhart <33

ps. The subject is our rapper names... video coming soon...